Tuesday, March 30, 2010

A few notes from a sleepy night not long ago

The following is a page of semi-related but random notes I wrote in my notebook one night just before going to sleep. Other than punctuation and spelling corrections it appears as it was in my notebook. Want to discuss any of these ideas or have me expand upon any of them?

Energy can neither be created nor destroyed.
-Do I believe this?

Emotions are electrochemical responses.
-Emotions are energy.

There is finite energy in the universe.

Energy is both positive and negative.

The more negative energy one takes within themselves the more positive energy they allow others to possess.

"Good" ends can be achieved by "evil" deeds.
-So what is "good?" What is "evil?"

For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.
-shouldn't the cumulative effects of human footsteps shake the world apart?

The energy that animates our bodies must surely go somewhere when we die.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Walking and thinking

So I just spent the last 55 minutes doing laps around my apartment complex to get some exercise. Feels good even though I'm sure the blisters on my feet will suck while I have to stand all night at work tomorrow. Anyway while I was walking I was thinking, and primarily I was wondering what it felt like to be stabbed.

Now I dislike pain so I in no way want to really experience being stabbed but I was pondering what it might feel like. Trying to decide if I ever had to write about a character getting stabbed in one of my stories what would I say it felt like.

I will probably Google it later and see if anyone has wrote about their experience being stabbed and I can read what they said it felt like. Personally I'm guessing that you wouldn't feel the knife at first, that it would feel like getting punched at first. But what do I know? Muscles getting cut would be painful I'm sure so I'm sure you would feel that soon enough even if you don't feel the initial penetration of the blade.

Anyway if any of my 3 or 4 readers have ever been stabbed or shot or something and you can remember what it really felt like at the time please do tell me.

Besides wanting an accurate description of what a stabbing felt like I was thinking about what the mind would actually experience. Now for centuries philosophers have wondered about the mind and its connection to the body. I don't remember all the theories and thoughts on the matter right now. I do remember duality to some extent I think. That the mind and the body exist on different levels or something. The mind being a spiritual energy or some such while the body is physical matter and what not.

That got me wondering if the mind would disconnect from the body to save itself for feeling all the pain the body was going through upon being stabbed? And if it did disconnect what would it experience? What can the mind perceive of the world if its not connected to the physical sensory organs and the brain processing centers? Kind of makes me wish I knew where I could go to experience a sensory deprivation chamber.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Magnetic Poetry

I got my old magnetic poetry magnets out the other day and this was the randomness that I put together today. Just a silly little poem that I have no idea what it means or if its trying to say anything. I took a pic of it with my iPhone because I just felt that would be easier than rewriting it. And then did a little editing of the pic, mostly uping the brightness and contrast. Just felt like sharing it. I really like that last line. Mostly just the "whisper symphony" part really. I just like that combination of words. Anyway tell me what you like about it, or don't like about it.

In other news I started writing a rough draft of a short story. It will still need some fine tuning but I decided to just start writing my ideas down before I forgot them all. I may type it up and put it on here in the future, once I write a little more that is. but I wouldn't hold your breathe on that just yet.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Well I'm still alive, for now.

Some time last week I started to get a sore throat. That's it, nothing else. Just a sore throat. I thought maybe I had scratched my throat one day when I was taking my multivitamin or something. By Thursday night I was getting sick and tired of having a sore throat and almost left work early just because I wanted to come home and rest.

I ended up being tired on Friday and lost track of time and was going to be late for work, and then I decided to just stay home instead. By the end of the night I was feeling a little worse so it seemed like a good idea I guess.

The weekend was long and kind of boring. But each day I seemed to get just a little sicker. What started as a sore throat became a sore throat with a stuffed up nose to eventually a minor cough. I got up today and felt like shit, but not bad enough to bother with a trip to the doctor's office or skipping more work (since I still haven't got paid for my week of unemployment I'm kind of strapped for cash at the moment).

The good news is I don't seem to have a sore throat anymore. The bad news is I can rarely breathe through my nose for very long it's so clogged up and what was a minor cough has become a lot worse. Not the worse cough I've ever had but very annoying all the same. I hate coughing.

Anyway I'll probably make a trip to the doctor's office tomorrow if I still feel like crap after I wake up. If nothing else maybe they can give me some antibiotics, which are just about the only thing I ever bother taking when it comes to meds. Assuming of course that whatever is causing this annoying head cold thing is something antibiotics would work on.

If it was just a bit warmer out I'd really like to open my windows and get some fresh air in here and see if maybe that would help me at all. And I think its just about time I finally get around to actually cleaning up this pig sty.

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Half Asleep Theology 101

We'll start with some definitions for a few words courtesy of dictionary.com:

aberrant - deviating from what is normal.
firmament - the vault of heaven; sky.
vault - arched structure forming a ceiling.
heavens - sky.
hover - 1. to hang fluttering or suspend in the air. 3. to remain in an uncertain or irresolute state; waver.

And now let's get some biblical passages, this time from my New Living Translation bible:

Gen 1:1-1:2 "In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. The earth was empty, a formless mass cloaked in darkness. And the Spirit of God was hovering over its surface."

Gen 1:7-1:8 "And so it was. God made this space to separate the waters above from the waters below. God called the space “sky.” This happened on the second day. "

So what does all this mean? Well YHWH creates the heavens and the earth in Gen 1:1 on the first day and yet heavens just means sky and he doesn't create the sky until the second day for some reason. Also the earth was formless yet it has mass and a surface. A surface implies there is already a barrier between the earth (below) and the heavens (above) so again why create this space on day two and wait until then to name it sky. And something to note of course is that YHWH doesn't create darkness, it's already there, so any statement about him creating the whole universe is disproved right there in Gen 1:2.

Secondly I find it odd to have this distinction between "God created" in Gen 1:1 and "the Spirit of God hovered" in Gen 1:2. Brings me back to something I've touched on before I think, either here on my blog or in replies to other peoples blogs, about what is "the Spirit of God" or "the Holy Spirit?" In the first three sentence of the bible they are already making this distinction. It must have some significance. Though what that is I am currently unsure. Two me it seems like these or two separate entities, though I know most Christians believe in the trinity all somehow being one entity.

Now in Gen 1:2 it says "the Spirit of God is hovering over its surface" and the definition of hover specifies "in the air" so therefore again I say the space between the waters below and above was created on day one or the spirit would have been floating or swimming, not hovering. That is of course unless you want to go with the other definition for hover that I provided. What might YHWH's spirit be uncertain about after creating the earth? Finally we get to what I actually wanted to say.

When bad things happen to people it is often said "God tests us." It is also said that YHWH is omnipotent and omniscient (all powerful and all knowing). If he truly were all knowing why would he need to test us? Wouldn't he already know the results? I think the obvious answer (and again something I've touched on before) is that he isn't all knowing or all powerful.

More importantly I would ask why does he test his own believers? Is he looking for some quality within them that they aren't already showing by believing in him and following his religion? Is he perhaps picky about which souls he lets into heaven so he tests them while they are on earth? Is believing in him and be his follower not good enough to get into heaven then?

I propose that YHWH tests people in search of aberrant souls. And if man was created in his image, and is capable of having an aberrant soul, what does that say about the purity of his own soul? Could this have anything to do with the uncertainty of YHWH's spirit?

The preceding was some random notes I jotted down before falling asleep last night. Not much real thought was put into any of it, nor did I expand on any of the thoughts beyond bringing my notes into full sentences for the most part. I would be happy to expand on any ideas expressed here at a later date if replies to this post indicate there is interest in any of the gibberish I just wrote.